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Look into my eyes, you will see …

Sometimes I think that I have met so many people in my life, and I greeted them with all of my heart or just with a bitter smile. There was no one special till I found you.

I have known you just a few months. And till this moment, I never had time to be a part of you. Now you are just in my mind and stay in my heart. But then, I’m sure. You’ll be mine J

Okay , I have my own reasons to be a Stalker. I’m stalking all about your activities in all of your social media accounts such as twitter, facebook, and blackberry messenger. Maybe it’s not too bad, is it ?

Yap, it’s so normal. When you are falling in love , sometimes you do crazy things. And this is what I do.

I walked the right way, didn’t I ?

Before you have a negative thinking about me, you must know that I have never been a Stalker before. I did it after I met you and have fallen for you. So when you thought that I’m an aggressive girl, You got it wrong,man !

I do everything with my heart. When it says “you must try to be closer to him”. I’ll do it with my pleasure. Sometimes I asked myself “why I must try and do every crazy thing to be closer to him?” and the most little  part of my heart which stays in deepest answered “you have got it honey, you found your love in him. Don’t you think that he’s so cool?”

Maybe I have tried so many ways to be closer to you, I was a Stalker, I tried to stay always near you but till now I’m getting nothing !

Maybe they are two simple questions.

1.     You never love me, or

2.    You never realized that I’m here. Looking at you behind a wall, hearing you talking with the others, but still loving you.

Whatever. I fed up baby !

I have died everyday waiting for you, darling don’t be afraid I had love you for a thousand years. And love you for a thousand more …

Terima kasih cinta, kau telah ajarkan kau untuk menjadi pribadi yang kuat , I had more mature than yesterday. Kau ajarkan aku untuk menjadi pribadi yang kuat. Kuat untuk menyimpan rindu. Menjadikanku pribadi yang ikhlas. Karna dengan menjadi ikhlas aku bisa melihat semua sisi negativ dalam dirinya menjadi lebih indah J

And for you baby …

Aku tau sangat sulit untuk menjadi sesuatu yang pantas untuk kau ingat. Dan aku telah memasrahkan hatiku pada sang maha cinta untuk tetap mencintaimu bahkan walau kau tak akan pernah tau. Tidak realistis memang. Tapi ya begitulah aku.

Dan aku hanya bisa berkata terserah pada waktu. Apakah sang waktu punya cara untuk menunjukkan mu semua ini secara sempurna atau bahkan terkesan memalukan? Entahlah, apapun itu aku yakin bahwa tetap takkan ada yang salah dari mencintai. Tuhan itu adil kan? Kau mungkin pernah sakit dalam cinta, tapi kau tak pernah tau kalau ada satu hati disini, yang mencoba terlihat sangat biasa saja tapi sebenarnya dalam diamnya mendoakan semua yang terbaik untukmu? Dan hati ini tetap melihatmu secara sempurna meski seribu cacat diri dan sikapmu telah dia lihat dan dengar secara nyata.

Hati ini mungkin dimiliki anak kemarin sore, tapi jangan bilang ini hanya cinta anak kemarin sore ya…

Because ,

I  known I had already loved you before I met you. I think I dreamed of you walking into my life … <3 <3 <3